Being Lost in Thoughts and inside intellect:

It feels like thejavu, what was already in my mind just got manifested, From under gone difficult situations before college days and while in college days. And being unemployed for few years and the situation which love hit me, these were already scripted in mind ? 

Even the new rented house was in mind, gone through all the wrst situations i can think of, still some are left out but those will be inhuman situtations, How long does this takes to manifest, But it  manifests for sure. I wished for tough situations for myself, am i crazy.

Another side of my instinct is in haste to live a life of fulfilment, sometimes it thinks of starting a new life. Can trust anyone in this world, they were just bundle of their thoughts playing. The residual Karma acts with everyone. Not even one is an exception.

What i lost is my dreams, Still losing my dreams on daily basis. What if i m by now. What am i regretful about. I regret my days which was gone being doing not so greatful things. Wasted my days, weeks, months and years. Being in not so good environment.


I assume i m dead now. what will i do if i reborn with this same age as of now with same situations, that wil change things for better.
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